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[Oct. 30th, 2006|01:02 am] |
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| | my couch | ] |
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| | the crucible | ] |
ok, so hector doesn't hate me. i talked to him today and it was all good. though i do still feel bad because he likes me and i feel like i've led him on. but now i can go on my trip and enjoy my time with chris because i wont be scared that someone in la is plotting my death or something retarded like that. anyway, love to all! ciao!
p.s. for those of you who don't know/don't remember...my birthday is on the 8th, a week from wednesday, woooooohoooooo |
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| fuckity fuck fuck |
[Oct. 29th, 2006|02:13 am] |
ok, so it's been like a century since i've posted but i'm having a problem right now and i just needed to vent/get peoples take on it. i just feel like a horrible person right now. there's this guy at work named hector. he's really nice and sweet and funny and cute, overall good guy. yet, he has this rep of being a player, which i could totally see because he is quite the flirt right. well, we've been hanging out a lot and flirting and i figure i was safe because while he likes me i figured he just wanted to get into my pants so it has been quite fun teasing him. i didn't feel bad about teasing him because again i figured he just wanted to get into my pants. oh boy did the shit hit the fan today. last night i went out with him, a friend of mine, some friends of his, and two peeps we know from work. one of the girls, yari, likes hector, at least i'm pretty damn sure. well, we were getting quite drunk and all night yari and the other girl were telling me how i shouldn't fall for hector becasue he's just a big player and he treats all girls like this and that they don't want to see me fall for him becasue i'll just get hurt. the whole time i'm like i know believe me i know and i'm not falling for him. well, they wouldn't fucking leave me alone about the whole thing and they kept pushing me towards this really cute guy that was there so i flirted with him and gave him my number hoping that this would make them back off. weeeeell, after that i left the bar and hector walked me over to my car and gave me a hug goodbye and i went to give him a kiss on his cheek and honestly i was so fucking drunk(don't worry i wasn't driving) that i couldn't aim well and i accidentally kissed the side of his mouth which he takes as me basically 'almost kissing' him as he puts it. well, so today at work yari tells hector that i kissed that other guy and gave him my number, i never fucking kissed this other guy, but upon hearing this hector gets all upset and starts acting really wierd around me. finally i get to talk to him about it on the phone after we had both gotten off work and he said that it upset him that i kissed some guy the same night i 'almost kissed' him. and i told him that i didnt kiss the guy, and then he's like 'ok can i be completely honest with you' and he said that i had given my number to the other guy and that was enough for him. i explained why i gave out my number to the other guy hoping to make him feel better but i'm not sure if i succeeded or not. and now i feel like shit. i've been fucking leading on this guy who apparently really likes me when i thought that he just wanted to fuck me. i feel like a horrible person. i mean i am totally still in love with chris and i know that i could spend the rest of my life with him but it's so hard having him so far away so hector kinda became my substitue boyfriend. we never did anything, it was just someone who would give me compliments and hang out with me and make me feel special. is that so much to ask for? i mean why does he have to really like me and go and ruin a good thing. so basically i feel like shit now because i unconciously made this really nice person feel like shit. what the fuck? and now i'm leaving on monday and will be gone for almost two weeks so it wont be resolved until i get back anyway, which is really bothering me right now because i hate things not being resolved. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. stupid fucking fickled boys. players aren't supposed to change their colors and start liking someone for real. and what a fucking bitch telling him all that shit about me just because she was trying to get me away from him because she likes him. and why did he get so upset? it's not like we were going out, i mean fuck i never even kissed the guy! ok, so i can understand being upset/jealous about something like that but i still don't like it. i've never been on this side of the story before and it's fucking tripping me out!!! so if any of you actually had the time/felt like reading this novel of an entry and you have any advice to give, please give it! i just can't wait until i see chris in a couple of days, that is about the only thing that's going to make me feel better right now. i feel like shit, i'm going to bed. ta to all! |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 12th, 2006|11:50 pm] |
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| | home | ] |
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| |  missing someone | ] |
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| | carly simon | ] |
I stare at the face before me and gently stroke his chin with my finger. A smile creeps over his face before he slowly opens his eyes. For a moment we just stare at each other eyes locked and his fingers tighten around mine. A tear rolls down my cheek as he kisses my forehead, then my nose, then my chin.
"I'm going to miss you so much." I whisper through the lump in my throat.
"I'll miss you bunches and bunches." He says to me as he pulls me closer to him, smiles, and kisses me. I realize that I could marry this man. I can actually see myself spending the rest of my life with him and even having his children. Is it possible to find your soulmate at the age of twenty? I don't want to be married right now, but I can definitly see myself marrying him in a few years. Am I crazy?
Nobody does it better
Makes me feel sad for the rest
Nobody does it half as good as you
Baby your the best
I wasn't looking
But somehow you found me
I tried to hide from your love light
But like heaven above me
The spy who loved
Is keeping all my secrets safe tonight
And nobody does it better
Though sometimes I wish someone could
Nobody does it quite the way you do
Why'd you have to be so good
The way that you hold me
Whenever you hold me
There's some kind of magic inside you
That keeps me from runnin
But just keep it comin
How'd you learn to do the things you do
-carly simon
This is dedicated to the one i love. (Haha, also a line from a song) |
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| anna nalick-breathe |
[Aug. 14th, 2006|09:25 pm] |
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| | friends | ] |
I love this song...it's so pretty and sad and true. enjoy
2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.
Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe
May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it
Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe
There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around
2Am and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no lonmger inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.
But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breath
Just breathe, ohho breathe, |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 9th, 2006|10:18 pm] |
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| | seinfield | ] |
i'm so tired, today was quite the stressful day at work. i had to stay late cause we were swamped and short handed and it was my first day with my own register. crazy!!! grr, i really hope that things work out to where i don't have to work there for too much longer. and i haven't talked to fucking chris since saturday which makes me sad because i would like to at least just hear his voice. but we'll talk soon. i'm not like freaking out or crying over it, i just wish i could talk to him. but i have an audition tomorrow night so everyone cross your fingers for me and think happy thoughts. i'm nervous/excited. we'll see how it all works out. anyway, i'm gonna go. love to all! ciao! |
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| (no subject) |
[Aug. 6th, 2006|08:55 am] |
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| | sister act | ] |
i'm sad, i'm lonely. i miss chris so very much. i miss my sister bunches, and i miss aniston and i miss my parents, i miss home. i need to start hanging out with more people here. i've been just going to work and the gym and unless i'm with kiki i've been alone. i need to start calling my friends to hang out. yup, i'm just lazy and broke so i haven't called anyone yet. i haven't even gone up to see jose and ian yet. i should do that, though i know it just means them annoying the piss out of me, but at least i'd be doing something. oh, but i have an audition thursday night for a student film. i'm excited. hopefully it will go well. anyway, i don't know whats wrong with me just last night i suddenly got really lonely. i think it's because i'm used to going to school everyday and seeing all my friends and even if we don't hang out afterwards i was still with them all day, but now i just see people from work, which is cool they are nice but i don't know them yet. i'm sure i'll make friends with some of them, just right now it's hard. anyway, sorry to just complain. i just really need to get into a movie or play or something that i can work on, then i wont feel like i'm just sitting on my ass doing nothing. and then i'll have my family away from home again. because my cast always becomes my family. well, i have to get ready for work now. hope all is well with everyone else! love to all! |
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| stupid survey |
[Jul. 25th, 2006|09:10 am] |
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| | dawsons creek | ] |
. In one sentence, explain what ended your last relationship:
I was always mad and he was always an ass
2. What made you smile today?
my dog being retarted
3. What were you doing this morning at 8a.m.?
waking up
4. What were you doing 15 minutes ago?
looking at myspace
5. Something that happened to you in 1985?
i was born
6. Your prom night?
was ok
7. Last thing you said aloud?
red no
8. Last thing someone else said aloud?
ok see you at noon
9. Worst thing currently on television?
there's a lot of shitty things on television
10. What was in the mail today?
it hasn't come yet
11. How many different beverages have you drank today?
just orange juice so far
12. What is your favorite part of the day?
umm, evenings
13. Your current To-do list?
get ready for work, fix my dads/kikis birthday presents, get ready for audition on sat
14. Where is your best friend right now?
one is at work, the others are in south carolina/north carolina doing god knows what!
15. What color is your toothbrush?
purple i think
17. Any plans for Friday night?
not as of yet
18. Least favorite place to shop?
anywhere overly crowded
19. Last thing you bought?
dinner last night
20. Last gift you received?
a book from my brother
21. Funniest thing you heard all day?
nothing yet
22. Favorite mug?
what a retarted question
23. What color is your front door?
white
Spill Your Guts
1. First thing you did this morning?
walked the dog
2. Last thing you ate?
cereal
3. Is your cell phone a piece of crap?
Sometimes
4. What's something you look forward to most in the next week?
auditioning, hopefully getting a job
5. What's annoying you right now?
my nose and the fact that it's itching
6. Do you believe in long-distance relationships?
not usually, but in my case i have no other choice than to believe
Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
always
Q: Where is the last place you went?
dinner with kiki
Q: Who is the last person you called?
gina at work to see if i had to go in today
Q: Do you look like your mom or dad?
both
Q: Do you have any siblings?
a sister and a half brother
Q: Do you smile often?
Constantly.
Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
he better be!! haha, jk...but hopefully he is
Q: Do you wish on stars?
occasionally
Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?
never
Q: What is the most disgusting food you've ever eaten?
umm brussel sprouts, i really hate them
Q: Would you kill someone?
no, not intentionally at least, and if i did on accident i would hate myself
Q: When did you last cry?
the other day when chris was saying how much he missed me
Q: Do you like your handwriting?
no, i hate it
Q: Are you a friendly person?
yes
Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?
umm, i don't think so
Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
mine, alas
Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?
purple
Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?
watching tv |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 16th, 2006|01:28 am] |
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i am drunk. first time in a long time. i've been buzzed but i haven't been drunk in awhile. it's nice not having to drive. i miss chris. i miss everything about him, his kisses, his arms, his smile, his jokes, his hands, the freckles on his gorgeous shoulders. hmmmm. i shall have to tell him this tomorrow. righ tnow he is with his kids in jacksonville. yes he =has kids if you didn't know this already. i love him. i am drunk. damn i drank way to much beer. mus t burn off the caoolories tomorrow. love to all. i hope everyone i s happy. i really do. i wish good to all.k anyway. goobdbye. |
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[Jul. 15th, 2006|12:39 am] |
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| | six flags add | ] |
i am so in love. it's not good, and yet it is at the same time. not good because he is three thousand miles away, good because he makes me feel like no one ever has before. rachel you were right when you said not to just assume it would end when i left. it hasn't. today he made me cry. he asked when i was coming back and i said i don't know, and he said make it soon, i said i'm working on it, and he said as long as your back before june(when he gets deployed to iraq) because what if i go and i die and then you never see me again, i said i hate you you asshole don't ever say that to me again, i will def be home before that and i will come back before you leave, but you can't say that shit to me or i will personally kill you for saying it. but he misses me, and i think he loves me too, i'm just to afraid to say anything because what if he doesn't say it back, what if he doesn't feel it too? i think i'll wait awhile and just see how it goes. oh, and i got a job today, i get to be a cashier at home depot...what a glamourous hollywood life i lead. but tonight i got to see a bunch of friends from here that i haven't seen in a while and it was awesome, and my friend chris was talking about my surgery and all and he was like 'yeah the other day we were all talking about it and saying that saidee wants this more than all of us and is more dedicated than anybody' which just really touched me that he said that and that they were talking about that. thats just cool. anyway, i'm a little tipsy and very tired so i think i'll go now. rachel give me comments because i miss you and i want to call you soon!!! love to all. ciao |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 9th, 2006|12:18 pm] |
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| | planet of the apes | ] |
for you, there'll be no crying
for you, the sun will be shining
for i feel that when i'm with you
it's alright, i know it's alright
and the songbirds keep singing like they
know the score
and i love you i love you i love you, like never before
to you, i would give the world
to you, i'd never be cold
for i feel that when i'm with you
it's alright, i know it's alright
and the songbirds keep singing like they
know the score
and i love you i love you i love you like never before
like never before, like never before
Eva Cassidy, Songbird
i like this song....alot. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jun. 14th, 2006|06:28 am] |
so it's 6:30 in the morning and why am i updating now? because the guy i am sleeping with, at my sisters house mind you, has pt(he's in the army) at 6 and after he left i couldnt' get back to sleep. i'm in trouble with this one. he's smart, fun, funny as hell, and so sweet. he also comes with a little baggage(kiki and rachel know what i mean). i mean, i knew this would be hard and tricky with me leaving and all, but the other day i came back from a one night stay on hhi and that night he said that he missed me. stupid i know, but it took me being gone for a month and being hysterical for dave to say he missed me. and then the other day we were joking around and he said i should just leave so i told him i would and i called my mom and everything(i know we're like two fucking teenagers or something) and we were talking and i said that he would have to say something nice for me to say(i was aiming for i'm sorry, in a totally joking manner mind you) and after 'you have a nice forehead' and others equally lame he said he would be upset if i left. well it came down to 'oh what would you be mad if i left' 'mad? no, but i would be upset'. or something like that. it doesn't sound as sweet written out like that, but it was. i don't know. i just feel the moment of saying goodbye getting harder and harder. why do i always seem to put myself in these situations? why can't i fall for a nice guy who actually lives near me!!! i feel myself pulling away from him at times, mentally that is, i guess because i'm scared. and i'm trying not to...i really just want to live in this moment. i mean fuck, it's the best relationship i've had so far and even if i only get it for a month i should fucking have it, just so that i know it's possible, it's possible to actually find a guy who is nice, and decent, and funny and treats me well. i mean he's broke and yet he paid for my meals when we all went out. dave never did that, not even once!!! i think alot of this stress i'm feeling though is also from my family...i'm never thin enough, i either dress to bummy or to slutty, i'm to childish or i'm to serious...it's never enough. mainly for my mom really. i love her and it's all from love that she says these things but really, i'm tired of hearing it from her. god i want a cig, why did you have to make them so evil. anyway, i'm going to go now, but love to all and don't worry i'm going to try not to freak out so goddamned much!! haha. 'say there's no future for us as a pair, and though i may know i don't care, just for this moment, as long as your mine' -wicked |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 28th, 2006|03:34 pm] |
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oops, sorry i forgot to add that my parents surprised me by taking me to see wicked in atlanta the other night...it too was aw-fucking-mazing. i think when i get back to la and get a job that i want to get back into voice lessons and dance classes, it couldn't hurt right? ok, now i promise that it is. PEACE OUT!!!! |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 28th, 2006|03:28 pm] |
so, i just saw xmen 3...aw-fucking-mazing!!!! and i now have more people to add to my list of future husbands which now, if i was to actually write it down, would probably fill an entire book. well, i guess i'd better get started if i want to marry them all before i die right! haha. anyway, good times here in ga..i actually haven't made it to south carolina yet, it seems to be taking me awhile, but i should be there around monday, or tuesday, or something like that. but good times have been had by me and my family. i go into surgery for my gums next wens, yes they keep pushing the damn date around, but finally we have one for sure. and i get to take really really strong drugs, appt better than vikadin before my surgery to knock me out. yay. and i have a consultation about a breast reduction next tues. so, things are getting interesting. anyway, i'm gonna go. hopefully i'll get to keep updating, but my access to a computer is limited. love to all...ciao. |
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| (no subject) |
[May. 22nd, 2006|02:26 am] |
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| | mad about you | ] |
i gradumacated!!!! hahaha, i can't even spell that right!!! i'm really really really fucking drunk!! hahaa, sad, i miss everyone already, it sucks not being able to see everyone every day. i love you guys!!!!! (that means you chris since your the only aada friend i have on hear.) but yes, i love you, and i shall miss everyone. ciao!!! |
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| the end |
[May. 12th, 2006|04:09 am] |
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| [ | music |
| | entourage | ] |
i'm done, it's over. it came and went so fast. it's a wierd feeling. i mean, i still get to go see everyone elses shows, and go to a bunch of parties and then graduation next week. but basically, i'm done. tonight went really well in case you were wondering...haha. the after party was pretty fucking awesome to. my friends vinny and cassie and i told each other we love each other like one million times and kept hugging (haha), i got married to a really cute 3rd year, i had to say goodbye to my soulmate who almost kissed me on my lips and i hope that i will get to see again someday(but if he is truly my soulmate it will happen right...haha), and i made out with a guy i've been flirting with for weeks. all in all i'd say it was a pretty successfull night. but it's wierd and sad. i'm in kinda a trance. it hasn't really fully hit me yet. i'm done. no more school. it's all over. i think i'll cry tomorrow. at least it went out with a bang. and i must say, i did really love when my friend told me i made her cry. anyway, it's 4 fucking 15 in the morning, i think i'll go to bed. love to all. ciao |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 29th, 2006|05:34 pm] |
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| | robots | ] |
question...does your outer appearance make up who you are? i'm getting my gums fixed in like a month and thats a huge change for me, but my mom is also talking about getting me veneers and a breast reduction. it's stuff i've thought about before, i mean having big boobs does limit my roles a bit. but will it seriously change who i am? will people still know me as me? ever since i got boobs i've been known as the girl with the big boobs...i don't know, its a big decision and while it would probably make things a lot easier on me it's really scary. it seems like it's so much of who i am, but i would like to be able to play more than just the tart because of my boobs. i don't know, i'm confused and scared. if i do the surgery and then i make it will i still be making it because of me or will i owe it all to my surgery? will i be a totally different person? like i'm wearing some kind of mask? i don't know. just thought i'd share my ponderings with you. love to all. |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 25th, 2006|11:30 pm] |
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| | south park | ] |
because i'm bored and ashamed to post more surveys on myspace because matt yelled at me for doing it the other day. enjoy
1. Do you still talk with the first person you kissed?
maybe once a year if that
2. Have you ever seen your best friend naked?
umm, no, though a few of them saw me naked last new years(who's idea was it to get naked in the goddamned hot tub anyway?)
3. What did you do when you weren't in school in the 2nd grade?
climb trees, swim, play with friends, invent games, i was a good little country girl until i moved to hhi
4. What is the best thing about your job?
i get payed alot for like 2 hours of work, it would be better if i would get the work more often
5. Do you like more than one person right now? i usually do(gotta have backups i guess)
6. Are you against same sex marriage? no
7. Did you vote for Bush? no
8. Where are you going on your next vacation? back to sc
9. Have you had sex with any one on your top 8? (sorry it was a myspace survey) umm, no
10. Are most of your friends guys or girls? both now, it used to be mainly guys, but i finally have girlfriends again!!
11. Do you own any furniture from Ikea? nope
12. Last book you read? still trying to get through eragon, but the last book i actually finished was shopaholic and sister at the end of the summer
13. If you could have one super power what would it be? flying, or the power to move things with your mind(i can't spell the word for it)
14. Where have you lived most of your life? i guess i technically lived on hhi longer but other than that ga
16. Where do you see yourself in 4 years? on the set of some big budget film that i'm starring in and on the phone with my soul mate(kiki gets it..hahaha)
17. What's your favorite smell? gardenias, the ocean, the marsh(god i miss that smell), pine trees, old books, and theres a whole lot more
18. What is your favorite sound? wind through the trees(with out fucking traffic), the ocean or any water lapping, audience clapping/laughing/crying with you, babys laughing, etc...
19. Are you moody? i'm a scorpio, it's expected
20. Favorite movies of all time? Garden State, empire records, the emperors new groove, anastasia, lion king, beauty and the beast, robin hood men in tights, first wives club, thelma and louise, i wont go on
21. Have you ever done anything hurtful to your classmate?
hmm, probably, do i remember doing it, no
22. Have you ever gone to therapy? no, but i sure i need it! haha
23. Have you ever Played Spin the bottle? yeah, scotland style is the bestest!
24. Have you ever toilet papered someones house? no, but i've always wanted too
25. Have you ever liked someone but never told them? yup, but usually i suck it up and tell them
26. Have you ever gone camping? yes and i really really want to go again!
27. Have you ever had a crush on your brother's friend? hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...breathe...hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha(those who know my brother understand)
28. Have you ever gone to a nude beach? nope
29. Have you ever gone streaking? Nope
30. Have you ever had a stalker? um, like 10, no joke
31. Have you ever gone skinny dipping? yup
32. Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? haha, yeah, just the other day actually when matt accidentally called me a bossom from norfolk tree instead of a blossom and then everyone talked about my boobs. it was funny and embarrassing at the same time.
33. Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only
one sober? yup, and it's not that fun
34. Have you ever been in love? i'm really not sure
35. Have you ever felt betrayed by your best friend? Yes
36. Have you ever lied to your parents? nothing major
37. Have you ever been out of the US? yup
38. Have you ever thrown up from working out? no, thats really wierd, and gross
39. Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore hat for a month? nope
40. Have you ever eaten 3 meals from 3 different fast food places? driving from la to sc all i ate was fast food
41. Last song you listened to? umm, i think it was because you love me by celine dion, don't make fun my damn cd player is broken
42. Have you ever spied on someone? haha, in the 5th grade when i was in a spy club
43. Have you ever slept with one of your coworkers? nope, i'm a clown, that would be really fucking wierd
45. Who was the last person who called you? nia my stage manager, i was late
46. When was the last time you slept for more then 12 hours
omg, like last year or something if then
47. Have you ever been arrested? nope
48. Have you ever stolen anything? lipstick when i was like 5 and a toe ring cause it was ridiculously overpriced and then it hurt my toe, damn you karma!
49. Have you ever drank egg nog? yes and i don't like it...blah!
50. If you could be anywhere right now where would it be? i'm pretty happy here, but i miss my fam right now, so somewhere with them would be nice, though then i'd want to be alone or with friends...hmm, grass is always greener ya know! haha
so thats that...have fun. |
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| nothing to say but i'm gonna say it |
[Apr. 23rd, 2006|05:33 pm] |
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| | harry potter and the chamber of secrets | ] |
i just thought i'd let everyone know, my boobs are too big. i almost suffocated myself today while doing yoga. the plough was not invented for busty women. just fyi.
ps. my dog has the hiccups and its really fucking cute. also fyi. |
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| what do you hate most |
[Apr. 13th, 2006|09:44 pm] |
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| | anastasia the cartoon movie | ] |
MOST HATED...
VEGETABLE:
Olives or brusselsprouts
FRUIT:
grapefruit
MEAL:
meat haha
CANDY:
black licorice and candy corn...blah
BEVERAGE (non-alcoholic):
hmm, whole milk i guess...i can't drink the stuff
BEVERAGE (alcoholic):
thats a hard one, umm, straight liquor of any kind i guess...i can't drink the hard stuff anymore unless it's mixed with something...sad, i know
COLOR:
neon anything, it's not the 80s anymore, no one should be wearing neon...it hurts my eyes
TOWN/CITY:
i don't know, i don't like texas much cause it's kinda scary, but thats not exactly a specific town or city
RESTAURANT:
dennys...ihop is sooo much cooler
FAST FOOD JOINT:
jack in the box is pretty disgusting
SONG:
i guess britney spears stuff, i really hate her and she can't sing...and most boyband stuff really drives me crazy too
TV SHOW:
distraction on i think mtv is one, fear factor, the amazing race, most reality tv actually excluding american idol americas next top model and yes, real world. i actually like watching real world, its funny to laugh at other peoples stupidity.
MOVIE:
snow falling on the cedars(and the snow just kept falling), mystery men, elektra, gigli(i saw it on tv, blah), million dollar hotel(em how many times did mom rent it?), and so many others...
BAND/GROUP:
Destiny's Child, well, manly beyoncee, and backstreet boys
FEMALE SOLO ARTIST: britney and beyonce(at least beyonce is talented, i just don't like her)
MALE SOLO ARTIST: hmm, i can't think of one right now, though i'm sure there is one
ASPECT OF MYSPACE:
messages from random guys i don't know saying shit like hey your cute whats your number....um, hi i don't know you!
ASPECT OF INSTANT MESSAGING:
the 3 hour time difference between me and my friends back home so i never actually get to talk to any of them
ANIMAL:
birds, they are pretty from far away but up close they are really freaky
INSECTS:
Cockroaches and palmetto bugs!!!!
BIRD:
so do you not classify birds as animals? wierd...like i said i hate all birds, but i have to agree with jenn on seagulls being the worst
SEASON:
i don't have a least favorite season! i love them all for different reasons
AGE IN KIDS:
2 or 3 are the toughest
WHAT ANNOYS YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING
people who think that they are better than everyone else. that annoys the piss out of me
DRIVING:
on hhi i would say tourists who don't understand the concept of a circle, out here cali drivers who don't know how to drive when it's raining or what i call spitting
THE PHONE:
yeah, i don't like that my phone hates me and sometimes wont let me make calls, or re routes my call so i say hey kiki to some guy who only speaks japanese, or my phone randomly calls my friends in my phone who then call me back to say hello why did you call me...yeah, my phone is psyco!!
WATCHING TV OR MOVIES:
phones ringing, really loud and obnoxious people, crying kids, people who kick your seats, or people who sit right next/in front/behind you when the whole theater is empty, commercials
EATING IN RESTAURANTS:
rude waiters, food that takes to long, and wierd people who ask for a dollar for the bus then kiss you on the cheek, yes that recently happened to kiki and i, not fun
GOING THROUGH DRIVE-THRUS:
when they screw up your food, or can't hear you through the stupid speaker thingy
GOING TO THE MALL
crowds, always forgetting where you parked the car
SLEEPING (OR TRYING TO SLEEP):
my dog barking at something, or him jumping on me, or people calling me early cause they don't understand time difference(yes ember that means you)
SHOWERING:
when the water will randomly get either really really hot or really really cold
YOU'RE AT THE BEACH:
seagulls, crowds(depending on the beach)
YOU'RE AT THE GROCERY STORE:
I hate when I have 2 items and the fast lane is closed and the person in front of me has 134 items. Like, have you no manners, sir? Shouldn't you let me go ahead of you?(i had to steal that one from jenn)
SITTING IN CLASS:
umm, people who ask something that was just answered, or really long winded questions that will take like an hour to answer...can we just move on please?
YOU'RE AT YOUR JOB:
annoying kids who ask for impossible to be made balloons, i mean how the hell do you make darth vader out of a balloon!!!
BEING AROUND KIDS:
i love them until they start screaming with those high pitched little voices
IT'S THE HOLIDAY SEASON:
crowded stores
PLAYING VIDEO GAMES:
the fact that i suck at them, and the games i was good at no one plays anymore like mario, sonic, and the lion king
COOKING OR BAKING:
cleaning up afterwards, or waiting for the food to cook
WHAT'S YOUR LEAST FAVORITE THING TO DO INVOLVING CLEANING?
picking up or vacuuming, wierd i know, i actually like the scrubbing it's the easy part i hate
WHAT HOUSEHOLD CHORE DO YOU HATE THE MOST?
vacuuming
WHAT DO YOU THINK WOULD BE THE ABSOLUTE WORST WAY TO DIE?
being stabbed or drowning
WHAT'S THE MOST ANNOYING HABIT IN OTHERS?
stupidity, or worse purposely being stupid like using really really bad grammer cause it's 'in style'
WHAT IS your WORST HABIT?
saying things i shouldn't, sometimes i speak without thinking first
WHAT FASHION TREND (PAST OR PRESENT) HAVE YOU HATED THE MOST? really pointy toes on shoes, i think it looks like elves feet and they make your feet look bigger
MOST HATED LINE FROM YOUR PARENTS:
i don't know, i guess 'i'm really dissappointed in you'
WORST OR MOST HATED PICKUP LINE:
when the random guy in the grocery store comes up to me with a bottle of wine and says, hey girl when are you going to come over and drink this with me...again, do i know you?
MOST HATED POLICY OF A TEACHER/PROFESSOR: don't know
WORST THING ABOUT BEING A LITTLE KID:
kids can be really really mean
WORST THING ABOUT BEING MIDDLE SCHOOL AGED (anywhere from 5-8th grade): again kids being mean
WORST THING ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL:
so much work and so much drama
WORST THING ABOUT COLLEGE:
Hangovers, haha, i have to agree with you there again jen
DUMBEST RULE YOU REMEMBER FROM SCHOOL (any year or grade): no flip flops when you live on an island...it's a fucking island!!! all we wear are flip flops! luckily the rule wasn't really inforced
MOST IRRITATING THING ABOUT YOUR CAR: the fact that some asshole broke into my car so now the cd player and radio don't work and all i'm left with are 4 different cassette tapes that i've been listening to for the past 6 months
TO BE COMPLETELY STEREOTYPICAL, WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST ANNOYING THING ABOUT GIRLS? sneaky behind your back bitchiness
TO BE COMPLETELY STEREOTYPICAL, WHAT DO YOU THINK IS THE MOST ANNOYING THING ABOUT GUYS? lying, obsession with boobs
MOST HATED ONLINE EXPRESSION:
rotflmao...i mean really how many letters can we put into one thing
MOST HATED EVERYDAY PHRASE/SAYING/EXPRESSION:
hella, i'm getting used to it but when i first moved here i was like what the hell is hella!
MOST HATED THING REGARDING POLITICS:
everything, i hate politics
WHAT'S ANNOYING YOU TODAY?
that my laptop is really hot on my legs right now...ouch |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 6th, 2006|10:49 am] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | king of the hill | ] |
so my mom calls this morning saying that she had some gossip right. i was like ok, she said that she had talked to evan and that apparently he and britt are living together now and that they are planning on moving out to la together to go to school in the fall. for some reason this really upset me. i mean i know that doesn't mean that she is actually coming out here, cause for some reason i have a hard time believing that she'll actually be able to do it, but i didn't want to hear the possibility of it. i mean, if she comes out here then she'll prolly hang out with a lot of the people i hang out with and that would mean i'd either be forced to lose friends or see her all the time. i don't want either. am i stupid? my mom said she was worried cause this isn't normal or healthy to be this caught up. is that true? am i just being fucking retarted cause i'm still hurt by her? should i be indifferent by now? maybe it's just the lack of sleep(i went to bed at like 6:00am) but i started balling when i heard about this. i don't want this pain in my life, i don't want to deal with it!!! but regardless of what happens in sept, i'll have to see her in like a month and a half when i go home which i don't want to do either. i don't know, i'm just tired of this whole thing. i wish i knew how to get over it and move on. i really did. i mean i don't want to be friends with her again cause i know she'd just start trying to use me and manipulate me again, i mean as soon as i showed her any kindness when she came out to get her stuff she started to try that shit, but i want to be ok. where it doesn't kill me to have to see her. god, whats wrong with me!!!! it's been like 10 times harder to get over britt then it has to get over dave! that was easy, this still tears me up inside. i need sleep. i need not to think. i need to grow the fuck up. |
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